So I just got with our 4th and final day of cheer tryouts. I am scared to death. Like what if I didn't make it. The worst part is I won't find out until tomorrow. I'm supposed to find put in the morning but since I have a track meet tomorrow all day I won't find out until after. The stress is going to kill me! Another hard part is my boyfriend of about a month doesn't want me to cheer. He's afraid I'll have all the guys starring at me. I decided the week before tryouts that I was just going to tell him I think I wasn't going to do it. You know like none committing. So now if I do make it and he finds out, I have to face that. And at this point I think that would be the end. We have lied back and forth between each other so much it would probably tear us apart. That also scares me to death. But anyway we should probably take this one day at a time and say cheer is first priority. If he freaks out he freaks out. Obviously he didn't love me enough to accept the cheerleader part of me and some guy out there will. Hopefully I'll be able to say he did though.
Love,
Snookie 24
