My sonnet

That first kiss will always be the sweetest.
The first I love you will leave you breathless.
That final goodbye will be the hardest.
The beak up will leave you fully speechless.
You will believe the world is crashing in.
Your heart will cease to continue to beat.
Your lungs will stop taking in oxygen.
The ground will fall out from under your feet.
You will want to clear out the memories.
Hoping to consistantly kill the pain.
Never wanting to re-read that dark story.
Si your eyes cry like the clouds pour out rain.
You wish to have back that one perfect love.
But instead you settle to watch the doves.

If you love something

Here I am at the end of one chapter of my life unsure of how to move onto the next. I just got out of a relationship with a guy that I had been with for 4.5 months. He was seriously my first real love. I had never been in a relationship that long and had definitely never loved anyone as much as I love him. Here's the tricky part though. He is a senior in high school and I'm just a freshman. Yeah I know livin the dream. not so much anymore. The split was a total shock and unexpected. But I understand the reasons why. He is going off to college next year. 5 hours away. I thought I didn't see him much now. Imagine then. So in all reality he saved me. But it didn't stop the hurt that came. But we agreed to be friends and to stay close. Just not a couple. I can't imagine being with anyone else at this point but maybe one day my heart will heal and I'll be able to move on. And heck. He's studying at the college I plan on going to in three years. And he is becoming a lawyer so he'll be there for 10 years. Whose to say that once I'm out of this hell they call high school that we wont be back together. All I can hope is that it's like that age old saying. If you love something let it go. If it comes back it's yours if not it never was.  Guess we'll have to see what the future holds. one thing i know for sure is I will never stop loving him. He is part of/the reason for the happiest times of my life. And I thank him so much for that.