Music

People have a lot of things that define their lives. Things that help them get through the worst of times. They are things like writing stories or poetry. Maybe they lose themselves in a good book, wanting nothing more than to escape to any world that isn't the one they live in. Some people cut themselves; feeling the pain they cause is much better than feeling the pain the world constantly causes. Some people turn to substance abuse of any sort. Drugs, alcohol, over eating, ect. Anything to numb out the world. Well I have turned to music. There is something about the lyrics and beats and all around message usually contained that I can always associate it with my life and just find relaxation. As a kid growing up with a step father that would come home raging drunk I would use the music to block out his rampage. I would pretend I was happy and just escape. As a teenager I understand that connection a little more. I have tied certain songs with certain emotions. So now anytime I hear the song specific things happen. I hear any song with a fast beat and some party lyrics I feel the urge to dance and just let go of the days stresses that way. Anytime I hear the song Shots by LMFAO I look for my best friend and feel the urge to get a party going. Anytime I hear the song How To Love by Lil Wayne I just stop. This song is one that sturs me the most. It makes me stop and just appreciate what I have. I stop and listen to the song and let the world around me do it's thing. Music has also taught me some very important lessons. Not everyone is going to like you. Actually people are more than likely not going to like you most of the time. But if you got haters you must be doing something right. If someone doesn't like you it's no big deal because lets be honest your life is probably better off without them. It has also taught me that silence is deafening and I hate being alone with my thoughts so I turn to music a lot. I also learned not telling someone you love them is the quickest way to lose them. Also be ready to tell them how much they mean to you because you never know how long that person is going to be in your life. And you don't want to be left with that feeling that you didn't tell them enough. And the biggest thing I have learned from music. (doesn't really relate to me but I wanted to end on a positive note) Stars have the hardest time with their names. Whether they are forgetting it or just want people to say it they have the hardest times with it. Say My Name, What's My Name?, That's Not My Name. People are calling Fergie Stacy instead. They are just having a bad time. Haha. But it's amusing to me. I shouldn't take joy in their pain.

Dating. FML.

Alright I have concluded that one of the most complicated things you will go through as a teenager is dating. It's freaking ridiculous. Ok so lets lay down a few ground rules because apparently the world has forgotten how it works.
1. My biggest rule. Don't cheat. If there is someone else break it off with the one you're currently with. You owe that much to them. In all reality you don't know how much they love you. You could be their entire world. Sure you're going to crush them when you break up with them but if you lead them on and cheat on them it's going to make them feel ten times worse. But definitely don't try and hide it from them. But you also can't flaunt it. Just be like hey babe I think we've grown apart maybe it's time to see other people. Let them know you are enough to tell them what's really going on. But I am a firm believer that you can have other friends while being in a relationship. I've been in positions where I talk to my guy friends more than my boyfriend. So don't freak out if your boyfriend/girlfriend is talking to someone else. It's part of life. Get used to it. And lets face it. I'm in high school. Most of the relationships wont mean anything in a few years.
Ok the next ones are in no particular order.
2.Don't date your friends ex's. Ok I lie date them all you want. Toni and I share boys like there's no tomorrow. But each and every time we ask each other if they are cool with it. I don't know how many times I've had to suck it up and be like hey I like this kid are you going to be ok with me dating this kid I know you guys had a past but I kinda want my turn now. Most of the time they are ok with it. I mean I know I just respect the honesty and figure if the could respect me enough to ask then I don't have a problem with them dating. It's a major problem when they sneak around and you find out through the grapevine. It's like really? You should have at least warned me so I didn't end up the last one to know.
3. You owe the ex's nothing. Ok I don't care if it's your ex or your boyfriend/girlfriends ex. You owe them absolutely nothing. Too many time have I gone into a relationship and the boyfriends ex be like what the hell? They think that because they dated once they have forever property on the guy. Well truth be told it ended for a reason. if he wanted to still be with you then ya'll would be together. And if he did ask you out again and he turned you down then I really owe you nothing because you screwed yourself over. You sent him away. What  I could never understand is why they girls get so offended when the guy moves on. Maybe it's because you want to believe he will always love you. Sure I've done this a few times. But most of the time I prefer they move on and get over me because once I'm done I'm done. So moral of the story here is A) You owe the ex's nothing B) As an ex you need to move on.
4. Don't say I love you until you're certain. I am one of those people that sure it's nice to here but I don't want you to say it unless you really mean it. This is for multiple reasons. My biggest one is I don't like having my feelings played with. I admit I kiss alot of people and don't feel anything for them most of the time. And yes I tell my friends I love them. But in that case it's a different type of love. It's a I'd do anything for you as long as you don't mess it up, kind of loves. But as soon as I start dating someone I won't say I love you again to them until I really mean it. I feel bad cause I'll still say it to my friends but I won't say it to them. Then when the time is right it will mean so much more. Girls: Don't wait for the guy to say it first because they may be waiting for you. It may end up being a disaster. Just always say how you feel. Guys: Say how you feel. And if the girl says it first don't run. Respect that they were honest with you.
Ok well I am done talking. Typing. Talking?
Haha
Love ya!
Xoxo
Chelsi

My life. Catching up.

Hey public, world, people with internet (or who are stealing wifi. Don't worry I won't tell.) As all of you know it's been a while since I've made an appearance. Lets see what there is to update on. Lets start with the fact that I made the cheer squad. Yup, my mom is freaked out by it a little. Haha. I don't blame her. If I have kids that are half as bad as me I will be super worried. Which is totally funny because this time last year if you would have told me this would be my life I would have told you, you were psycho. Like really I went from being normal teenage innocent to full blown whore. (Not that I've done have the things people think I have.) So this summer was lame until the last month. Uhm lets see. First month I did absolutely nothing. Second month I was in Ohio. Long then expected too because they fucked up my scheduling so I had to wait and extra week. Ok so the final month AKA where the fun began. :) So it started out as being a birthday party for Shayla. Then we decided it would be fun to go hang with some boys. Soooo, long story short it ended up on Facebook. We all got in trouble for more than just sneaking out. ;) And to this day it is still known as THE party. Ok so then school began and so did my love a fare with one of my best friends. We took each other to new heights and new lows. Then he decided he was never going to get over his ex who he is convinced is the love of his life. So I kinda gave up on him. But at the same time I keep going back. There are just people in this world that you know you'll never get over. Well actually if you want to get down to it I have 0 feelings for him. It's more like I would do anything for this kid and just want him happy. I'm stupid. So Me and him will probably always have an on again off again thing. I joined speech. "Whore" around on a regular basis. In all reality it's just my entire high school thinks I'm the biggest slut when I'm still a virgin. But whatever. If you can't beat 'em join 'em. ;D Haha. I can make out with guys without feeling anything. Uhm. Yeah. I'll stay on top of this more. That way I can get ya'll more details.
Loves.
Xoxo.
Chelsi

Cheer Tryouts

So I just got with our 4th and final day of cheer tryouts. I am scared to death. Like what if I didn't make it. The worst part is I won't find out until tomorrow. I'm supposed to find put in the morning but since I have a track meet tomorrow all day I won't find out until after. The stress is going to kill me! Another hard part is my boyfriend of about a month doesn't want me to cheer. He's afraid I'll have all the guys starring at me. I decided the week before tryouts that I was just going to tell him I think I wasn't going to do it. You know like none committing. So now if I do make it and he finds out, I have to face that. And at this point I think that would be the end. We have lied back and forth between each other so much it would probably tear us apart. That also scares me to death. But anyway we should probably take this one day at a time and say cheer is first priority. If he freaks out he freaks out. Obviously he didn't love me enough to accept the cheerleader part of me and some guy out there will. Hopefully I'll be able to say he did though.
Love,
Snookie 24

The Website I Made

So I made a website. It's so cool. It's for my church. It has everything you would need. :) You go to it and you instantly know our church. We have pictures. We have our calendar of events. It has all the sermon notes you would need to catch up with if you were gone one Sunday. It's so cool! Well I'm probably more excited than anyone else about it because I made it all by myself. With a little bit of help from Miriam and Mrs. Johnson. So all by myself. :P It was fun. I am pretty good at it. I made tabs and added them. I will have to upload pictures and junk but I will be able to do it. I made a calendar. It was the hardest part of making the website because i couldn't figure it out for the life of me. Like I would make it and I had it all done but I couldn't figure out how to get it to go the web page I wanted it to go to. But then people showed me how to do it and i did it. I'm so proud. :) It was probably one of the most fun school projects I did. I think I forgot to mention it started as a school project and turned into this totally awesome thing. :P Ok well that's all I have to say on that. L8R

Soulja Boy!

OK we have the pimpenest yes that is a word dance to a Soulja Boy song. Can't wait to see it all put together! So pretty much its a video of Krystal dancing to the song. It's not really a video. A stop motion picture is what it is. So much fun. We pretty had a blast. Me and Trestin decided we weren't going to dance. Just mess with Tiffany and get in front of the camera. Tiffany was taking pictures. Kept yelling at us to stop. We have a hard time listening to her. :P So we kinda danced mostly got in the way. I at one point kinda stood behind Krystal and danced but i looked retarded. It was super fun. I'm going to be super duper sad if our teacher doesn't like it. It is so cool. Ok Krystal you are officially a pimp. You are a super good dancer. :) Me I can dance when i want to but mostly it's made up on the spot. OK Just got the pictures officially! I am a sexy BEAST! :P I love it! Whoo! I'm stoked! It's gonna be sweet once I have them all edited and whatever. So cool. Ok well I'm going to go. Talk to you later I guess. :P

HELP!!!

I am so stuck! Well not really stuck any more but ugh! I spent an hour and a half last class period trying over and over and over again to put a calendar on my web site. Well turns out I'm stupid. I was doing it completely wrong. Now that i have it figured out I feel stupid. Well all is good now.